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March 7, 2015 DAY ONE
I wish I could capture words as I live through each moment. But alas, if I am writing, then I am not doing. So I must rely on my 24 hour memory to write all that my brain was experiencing yesterday. It was a beautiful, wonderful, uneventful day of driving. It was my wish to have it so. My prayer this past month was that God would allow the storms to go before me or come behind me. Because of my postponement of leaving last week I missed an awful ice and snow storm at exactly the place I would have been had I left on time. Today I sat in the church in Rolla Missouri and the pastor told about how the church had been used as a safe place for 60 of the people who were stranded on the highway after being involved in a 25 vehicle car crash on Interstate 44. There were no services at the church last Sunday due to the horrible road conditions and all the people who were stranded without a means of transportation, using the church as a place to stay. The church body braved the storm and accommodated the people with places to sleep and food to eat. Well, that was one storm I missed.
Back to yesterday, the sun was shining, the sky was full of beautiful clouds, the land was covered in snow and the air was pristine. I saw a wolf alongside the road, dead, but still beautiful. And I must admit I have never seen such beautiful artistic power lines. Really amazing works of art. I so much wanted to stop and capture their beauty with the camera but knew it would not be safe with people speeding by at 80 miles an hour. The speed limit was 70 and they were all passing me so I figure they were going 80. Fortunately there was not much traffic and I don’t recall there being any construction. I also was surprised as I drove into Rolla to see so much carnage and twisted burned out MAC trucks still on the side of the Interstate awaiting removal. So many skid marks and deep gouges in the earth made the accident all too vivid and real.
My first stop was in St. Louis where I promptly got lost following map quest’s written instruction. “Lost as a goose” as my mother used to say. So what does a damsel in distress do? Well, ask for instructions of course; did it on my hands free car phone by calling my source point, my nephew Eric. I only got lost a couple more times. Finally, safe and sound, I arrived on a quaint narrow street from the 1930’s. Beautiful, all brick homes with gingerbread and arched doorways and steepled gables. And we were all hungry and that is where the pizza above originated from.
Now, just so you know, my car is packed to the gills. I didn’t have time to cull my last clothing list so I stuck it all in. And after one day, my car is already a mess. And it will stay that way until I get to my next stop tomorrow evening when I plan to take everything out, and start over!
I’ll tell you one thing, I never realized just how much God still has to teach me. And…He is using every day to do so. I think I am in for an interesting trip!
Briefly, as this message is getting wordy, everything that was in my front seat was rearranged to the back seat (bigger mess) so nephew Eric could ride to Rolla with me. His wife followed, for a while until she realized I drive the speed limit and then I followed her for about two minutes. She arrived a few minutes before we did. And oh what a delight I walked into. Eric’s wife’s aunts graciously opened their home to me, sight unseen so I could stay in Rolla and visit my Aunt Gracie. A home that you actually felt love dripping from the ceilings. Their story is amazing and interesting and too long to tell in this post. Remember this adventure is to tell it like it is. Stay tuned to hear about these two identical twin ladies with hearts of gold.
March 8, 2015 DAY TWO
…A day that was more priceless as gold. Spent the entire day with my precious Aunt Gracie, my mother’s sister. It was one of her “good days”. She is experiencing memory loss. Some times the loss seems more severe than others. Aunt Gracie seemed to be her same usual jovial self. She remembered me, my face that is, but not a lot of the details of my life. She still had a recollection of my children at different times during the day. She asked the same questions over and over and I answered each one as if it was the first time. Moments are always new to her and she seems content most of the time, but at others, shows concern for what she know is happening to her. Even if she didn’t remember me, I remember her, and I wouldn’t have missed this opportunity for anything. I so wanted to see her one more time in my life and I have done so. We talked and talked and shared long ago memories that she recalls vividly. It was so fun to hear her tell of them, and how new and refreshing they are to her. I think she especially enjoyed to have someone to listen to her. Her precious Bob is in recovery from a serious fall several months ago. He is able to walk with the aid of a cane but I can see the sadness that he has due to his loss of activity. He was always such a hard worker and doer of anything that needed to be done. It was such a beautiful thing to see how devoted they are to each other.
I went to church with her and then met up with her daughter and we all went out to eat. Aunt Gracie’s appetite is alive and well. When seeing how much she loves to eat it is surprising that she is so tiny and thin. She seems like a delicate flower, fragile and beautiful.
March 9, 2015 DAY THREE
My last day with C and S. Worked out on their stationery bike, more delightful conversations and story time, preparation for my next trip, packing up for the ride south and then time to meet my Aunt and Uncle before leaving Rolla.
Gracie and Bob were able to meet up with me the next day for a lunch at a Burger place. I passed on the menue, she ate half a burger. But she was not having a good day. She was unable to stay long and we parted with tears and hugs.
Went back to C and S home, packed the car and I was on my way.
March 10, 2015 DAY FOUR
Started the journey Saturday and now it is Tuesday and I feel as if I have lived a lifetime in between. And what a beautiful lifetime! Amazing how much can be packed into three days. Today I am resting. On Saturday I met up with my nephew Erik and wife Karen at their home and had a wonderful LATE LUNCH, as I was late for my first scheduled appointment. I tried so hard to arrive on time. I did everything except speed. I suppose if I had not left 2 hours and 40 minutes late I would have had a better chance of being there on a time. It was a lovey surprise to find out that Eric and wife were going to my second stop with me. Karen had made it possible for me to spend two night with her aunts in a location where I needed accommodations. If nothing else wonderful happens on this trip it will have been worth it just meeting these two delightful, godly ladies. WOW! What a weekend of learning and blessings from the Lord.
These two ladies, I will call them C and S, are identical twins. They are so full of the Lord that God’s love just drips from the ceilings of their home. I could feel the Lord’s presence when I entered their home. I have never felt so humbled to be in the presence of such loving and caring people. The parts of their story I heard while there would make a long interesting book and a better movie. I will have to write more about them later as I do have their permission to do so. They have lived an amazing 82 years. I wish I could have spent many more days learning from them and hearing about the wonderful miracles that have happened and are still happening in their live. From the moment I walked in and met Miss C my learning experience began. God started doing a work in me that even surprised me. I believe I was supposed to be there exactly when I was there. I was presented with a wonderful opportunity to reach out and share God’s love with a young man who was staying with them. As a new believer he was searching for so many answers. I know the words God allowed me to share with him touched him deeply and possibly will make a great difference in his life. It is always a great joy to be able to pray with others. However, this was a situation where I think I was much more blessed than those I was with. The seed had already been planted and God allowed me opportunity to water.
I arrived in Willow Springs last evening just in time for dinner. So wonderful to sit down and have dinner with friends that I haven’t seen for awhile. I am currently visiting with Kathleen and Mat formally City Church attendees. We played a wonderful game of 9 hole golf (cards). It was wonderful because I won! Up way too late again and so today I slept in, raided the fridge, spent time with the Lord, and finally showed my face between 12:30 and 1:00 p.m.. This was all done with advance notice as it was Kathleen’s (the other Kathleen) idea. What a great idea. I’ll try to log a picture of the homes I’ve been to so you can see the different places and styles.
After updating the blog I will go work out at the YMCA. I’ll try to log a picture of the homes I’ve been to so you can see the different places and styles. Hopefully this will publish with the slow internet speed here at the Willow Springs Library. None of the homes I’ve been in have WiFi. And not many more do that I’ll be with the next week or so. Uploads may be far and few between.
I’m hitting the road Jack…
But I do “want to come back for more”!
FINALLY! Saturday March 7 2015 is my expected date to leave. Hopefully I will be packed up and ready to fly between 5:00 a.m. and 6:00 a.m.. I Have a luncheon date in St. Louis with a very special hunk of a man! (And his wife). And when I say hunk, I mean hunk! He is my beloved nephew Eric, first born son of my late brother. Eric is as special as he is big. When I get there I’ll take a picture of this late middle aged nephew of mine and show you just how handsome he is. Maybe just being handsome runs in the family. Eric has a heart for the Lord and his spirit is gentle. In my eyes he is a gentle giant in so many ways. I look forward to visiting with both Eric and his wife.
Between flight take-off in my little Silver Fox (yes, my car has a name too, as well as Soul) I have about 10 more days of preparation I’d like to do. So I must zoom it all in three days and still make sure I have time to go and say my farewells to two more beautiful men, my precious grandsons ages three and seven. I think the farewells will be the most difficult part of the “getting ready to go” aspect of my journey. Then one son, one daughter-in-law and my precious husband of 42 years I must bid goodbye. And that is the sum total of my family living in Wisconsin.
I’ll try to post another update on Saturday night when I reach my destination of Rolla, Missouri. Must sign off as I actually need to accomplish a few thousand things today.
Good News!
GOOD NEWS IS WORTH WAITING FOR! Arrived at the Doctor’s office at 2:00 p.m. today and he was called out for an emergency. We had the choice of rescheduling our doctor’s appointment or waiting. We didn’t care how long the wait, we were waiting. We were called in about 3:30 or so.
BOTH GROWTHS ARE BENIGN! The first one (which could be felt) was a calcification of of scar tissue and the leftovers from the first tumor I had removed three years ago. The second, deeper growth is not cancer but I can’t remember what it is exactly. I was given the option to have the surgery now or when I return in June. That decision is still pending. As of right now I am scheduled for surgery March 10th for the removal of two lumpectomies (also referred to as a partial mastectomy). I must call tomorrow with my final decision. That decision is pending. I am going to sleep on it.
I thank all of you who have been praying for me. It was a great relief to hear such good news. I thank God for giving me strength and joy and peace these last days. Had the diagnosis been different it would not have made a difference in how much I love Him for He is my continual strength, my continual peace, and my continual joy.
Once I make a decision on my departure date I will post it here on the Travel Log and will be contacting all who are on my route to make date arrangements for staying at your home or for the visits we have planned.
Prayer From a Friend
Early Thursday morning I was in my prayer room writing in my journal. I had just finished writing a poem when the phone rang. It was a new friend calling to give me encouragement for my recent news. He said he had a prayer for me and would like to pray for me. I never turn prayer down. He began to say a simple beautiful prayer to our Lord. My heart welled up with joy and laughter. I actually laughed out loud as he prayed for it just bubbled up from within. When he was finished I asked if I could read what I had just received from the Lord (for I believe all my poems are a gift received from God). Of course, how could he say no? I told my friend that the prayer he just prayed was the same as the poem I had just written. I read it to him. Afterwards he exuberantly expressed “Oh how wonderful to know that the Lord is just confirming how He has you wrapped in His arms”. And I agreed. Following is the poem:
Everlasting Treasure
Kathleen Martens
February 26, 2015
You, O Lord, are my song
That sings within my being.
Oh so sweet is Your voice
As a beauty that I’m seeing.
For your song is dance
And in Your presence alive.
Harmony flows from Your glory
And my spirit feels Your vibes.
A melody that fills my heart
And lasts all day long,
It fills me with beautiful words
Saying, to You I belong!
And I respond to Your rhythm
And gentleness of Your touch.
Though I deserve not Your grace,
To me You give so much.
Thank You Lord for filling me
With joy and peace without measure.
To carry Your song in my heart,
Is my everlasting treasure!
A Different Kind of Journey
My thoughts keep flitting to “where I should be right now” if I had left on schedule. But…that was not to be. Over the past few years God has taken me on some personal journeys. One journey in particular was learning how to live in the moment. That was something I could not do for many years of my life. Do I have it mastered? Perhaps not, but I am so much more content living in the present of each moment I live than I was in the past.
Tomorrow, Monday March 2nd is an important day for me. My husband and I will see the surgeon who will give us the results of my breast biopsy on the two growths growing inside me. Will they be malignant? That is a question I cannot help wonder about. And WONDER is the operative word in this sentence. I have not been worried, upset, sleepless, or discouraged. Worrying about something I have no control over only robs me of my current joy. I choose to think positive, believe positive, and trust in God’s plan for my life as I live in this moment. This moment is the only time I actually live and I will not squander it with worry.
I will send out an update tomorrow. This is a different kind of journey than I thought I would be taking at this time but day by day it will unfold and I will live each day to the fullest regardless the diagnosis I receive on Monday. Everyone has a different journey, a different adventure and when you have the Lord with you , you are never alone and never need fear. How awesome is that!
The Wardrobe!
So I say I’m going to travel light!!!!! For all who know me you probably already know that that is an improbable feat. But I try. So last Sunday (a week ago) I decided that I might as well go through my summer closet (here in Wisconsin two closets are a must) and pick out some outfits to mix and match for the warmer weather I am hoping to encounter. Warmer weather seems like a dream about now when temperatures are plunging below zero. Now that I do not know exactly when I can leave, due to surgery and recovery time, it makes it difficult to gauge exactly what and how much I’ll be needing. Maybe it will already be warmer weather when I leave and then again maybe it won’t. So…do I need to plan for winter clothes and summer clothes? How many outfits will I really need for 16 weeks?
So, I tried on everything just to make certain it still fit; mixed and matched, sorted and resorted, added and subtracted, put in some winter clothing, took some out, added more, and then decided I needed more summer outfits. By the time I finished I had enough to last a year. One shirt for each pair of pants, then over blouse or jacket to go with two or three outfits, shoes for all occasions (all two styles I own), and another pair of pants (just in case). All said and done I will have no room in my car except for my clothes.
So I have decided I will allow myself to choose half of what I currently have sorted on the spare bed (except for the underwear). Since my hair is so short I’ll just leave my comb and brush and home. That will help save some space. Maybe I should take a picture of what the spare bedroom looks like right now before I do the culling. Then again…maybe I won’t. After all, I need to save my dignity!
Maybe it’s a good thing I couldn’t leave on time. I still need more time for packing!
What is the first thing to do?
When looking ahead to plan a trip that will eventually escalate into three to four months what is the first thing to do? Well for me it was thinking. And after all the thinking and planning I look back and wonder if that was the first thing I should have done. Perhaps if I hadn’t started thinking about it I wouldn’t be in the predicament I am in. Predicament??? Well, let’s put it this way, because of my grandiose thinking I have put myself in a pickle, so to speak, of information overload.
As we know, when a woman is planning a trip there is always SHOPPING to do! So I did. My first purchase, being a photographer, was to purchase a new (non-professional) camera. Decided I needed something compact and small and easy to handle. My pro-cameras are heavy and to be honest with you I am tired of how heavy they are. So, my compact little RED camera became my newest addition to my family. My cameras are a bit like children. Can’t live with them and can’t live with out them, temperamental at times and often misbehave. The first misbehavior part was the fact that my old tried and true MAC would not accept the new updated technology of little MISSY RED! Yes, my camera has a name…So…I had to get a new computer. A laptop this time so I could take it with me. I made one great huge mistake however. I bought a PC instead of a MAC. What a nightmare! After using a MAC for so many years I was lost as a goose. A PC is like a foreign country where I don’t speak the language. So, lots to learn. Then had to have a new program (Lite-room) to handle my new technologically advance camera card. So, lots to learn. After taking two long long classes I finally downloaded something free that does the job and is a lot easier to use. Hey, don’t laugh! I was used to Photoshop on the MAC and I learned that. Perhaps it is just that my brain is a bit older now.
Then I ended up with a different phone and oh my goodness…that is like holding a little brain in t he palm of your hand. I know why it is called a smart phone. It is smarter than I could ever be. But…I’m learning. And then, THE BLOG. What a nightmare! Something else new to learn and learn and learn and re-learn. And I am still learning. So I hope you bear with me as I learn as I go. And I won’t even mention the new GPS I must master. (OK you techies out there, quit snickering!)
The Color of Love
The Color of Love
Kathleen Martens
August 12, 2011
God in His love created our world.
Lavish colors sprinkled as His canvas unfurled.
The blue of the sky, and meadows green,
Flowers in rainbow colorful sheen.
What is the significance of the colors He made?
Received each season, never to fade.
If asked the color of love what would be said?
A Cup of Water
A Cup of Water
By Kathleen Martens
March 17, 2011
A soothing cup of water
Does more than just quench thirst,
When offered from the heart
A soul will be submersed.
Perhaps it is not liquid
But “words” that are a balm.
Healing pain and sorrow;
Creating peace and calm.
My Private Heaven
My Private Heaven
January 2, 2013
Kathleen Martens
The thoughts on which I dwell,
My private heaven or my private hell.
What I think – so become I,
Succumb to the pit – or soar and fly.
It all depends who lives within;
The God of salvation or demons of sin.
We have choice – to become who we desire to be.
As for me –I choose to be free,
All Because I Thought to Think
All Because I Thought to Think
By Kathleen Martens
September 13, 2014
Thinking — Thinking
That’s what I must do.
But it takes a lot of time
And my moments are so few.
And then I must think
About on what should I dwell?
And do I keep thoughts private
Or to others tell?
Months Ahead
Wow! If I only knew months ago how much it would take to get ready for the planning of a four month adventure I might have started sooner.
Friday July 17 2015 A DAY OF THANKS!
Why is July 1th a day of thanks? I’ll tell you why. Thirty six years ago today I gave birth to my son. He was born two months early and things weren’t going so well. He was transferred to another hospital to the NICU center. His entire first year did not go too well. But since we are celebrating his 36th birthday you can conclude that he did survive.
Tonight when I hugged him I was so thankful that I have shared 37 celebrations of his life. That he survived the first 24 hours was a great celebration! We did not know if we would ever share another birthday with him.
As I hugged him I thought about the parents who this week lost an eleven year old son due to being run over by a car while he was riding his bicycle. They only had 12 celebrations of his life. I am so thankful for every day that my son has lived.
Courtland and his family came over for a birthday celebration dinner. It is always a joy to have my family over so I can make food they like and share in the enjoyment of once again having my son at our dinner table. On birthdays we like to tell stories about the birthday person. It is a fun time and I always learn something new as I listen to the stories. It is delightful to hear the stories that the three and seven year old tell. The three year takes a story that someone else has told and enhances it quite a bit. I think he even believes that what he says is true. Tonight the seven year old told the story about his dad coming over and having dinner with us. It was a very current story.
After the story time I asked each one to give Courtland wisdom they would like to share with him. Dave went first and actually gave him the same wisdom I was going to share. He told Courtland to never get too busy with all the things and hustle and bustle of life that he did not take time out to enjoy the everyday and ordinary things with his family. He encouraged him to live in the moment.
So I had to come up with something new. My wisdom to Courtland was to not neglect his spiritual life. To be certain he trained his boys in the way of the Lord and had them in church so it would become a way of life to them. I told him to walk in the way of integrity so that his sons would see his life walked out as a Christian Father. I recommended that he walk the walk.
This morning on the way to the gym I stopped at a garage sale in my neighborhood. It is a family I only know through our neighbor get-to-gathers. The daughter just graduated and is going off to college. I asked her what wisdom she had for others at this stage in her life. Ashley’s wisdom was: “Don’t sweat the small stuff”. That may be a short sentence and one that we have heard many times over in our lifetimes but until you learn how to “not sweat the small stuff” you don’t really understand how difficult it is to learn. If more people could just learn that earlier I think the world would be a much friendlier place. Thank you Ashley for your timely wisdom. I pray that as you grow into full blown adulthood that you will remember these words of wisdom today and take them to heart. You are already one step ahead of so many others in know this lesson of life.
DON’T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF
By Kathleen Martens
July 17, 2015
Sometimes it’s the little things
That turn into all the big.
Little misunderstandings
Cause us to dance a jig.
Maybe we should listen more
And really hear what is said,
And just sleep on what makes you mad
Instead of worry, just go to bed.
Think on what bothers you,
Mull it over in your mind.
In the morning speak your piece
With words that are kind.
Understand the other’s view
And listen as they explain
There are always two opinions
Do not hear their words in vain.
Give just thought to their beliefs
It will be different that’s for sure,
And when you do understand
You may surely have the cure.
You will no longer suffer
From angry and malicious thoughts,
Because the small stuff is unimportant
In its struggle you’re no longer caught.
So…don’t sweat the small stuff
Place your focus on what is true.
Put your eyes on God alone,
And understanding will be shown.
Then the small stuff stays
Exactly where it should be.
Your spirit is no longer bound
By only what YOU see!
Well, I didn’t know that Ashley’s wisdom would by my inspiration for today’s poem. And timely I think it was. For you see, when I tried to publish this bog I did something incorrectly and lost everything except the poem. I had to totally rewrite everything (except the poem). It was as if I heard in my mind “Don’t sweat the small stuff”! And in the scheme of life, losing a blog really is small stuff.
It is late, Dave is asleep, so I will publish and go to bed. Dave is slowly making strides toward healing. I think he may have overtaxed himself today helping me do some things to prepare for tonight’s birthday celebration. His leg is still painful and red. His next appointment is Tuesday. He is still on oral drugs until then. Please pray that continued healing will be noticed daily.
My first blog was quite a bit longer and more detailed. Sorry for the “quick” version.
Good night and God bless you!
Poetry
SOUL
Wedded to body, life-giving force
Entwined with spirit for eternity’s course.
Immaterial self within human being
Confined by flesh – wings of death freeing.
The place of hungering and thirsting for God
Awaiting release from earthly sod.
Uniquely created deposited at creation
That which feeds all sensation.
OUR SOUL
OUR BEING



