Saturday July 18 2015  EVEN ON SATURDAY I CAN’T GET IT RIGHT!

TODAY is actually Saturday.  The real Saturday.  And I thought it was Friday.  But only once, and only for a minute.  Getting these days straight is like being on vacation without a calendar.  I think the only reason I actually followed the days right while I was traveling (most of the time) was because I wrote my blog each night and my computer has the date and time on the screen.  So at least once a day I knew exactly what the date was.  However, it doesn’t tell me the day of the week!

Dave has actually been home from the hospital for a full week now and we are getting used to retirement.  I actually think it will take a long time to get used to the idea.  Especially after I really do finish all my work.  I have my surgery a week from Monday.  That again will put me out of the norm.  Please pray for a speedy recover as I have out of town company on the following Sunday August 2^nd.   Our daughter’s birth grandmother will be coming to stay three nights.  Unless she reads my blog she may not know I have surgery scheduled.  I didn’t tell her because I really wanted her to come.  I absolutely love having her visit.  She has come every August for the past nine years.  We reconnected with Rebecca’s birth family at that time and have been included into their family with heartfelt love.  Rebecca has a wonderful relationship with her birth mother, two half sisters and half brother.  Her birth mom is Carole and she is married to my favorite composer, David Hollandsworth.  Rebecca claims him too has part of her family.

As I drove across country I can’t tell you how many times I listened to the CD’s that David wrote and performed.  When I put one of his CD’s in my player it seemed to synchronize to the amazing creation of God that I was viewing at that moment.  The grandeur of the mountains and oceans and desert and canyons and open sky seemed to beckon the musical symphony.  It felt like I was in a movie and the score had been written just for that scene.  It reminded me of the beauty of the music written for the movie GONE WITH THE WIND.  David’s music will forever mark the passage of the miles I traveled across big empty places, the high mountain roads, the unending desert land, the coasts of California and Oregon.  I listen to the music now at home and the visual memory of where I was pops up in my mind.  Some believe it is smell that evokes such strong sensory memory.  For me it will ever be TIMELESS, the last CD Carole sent me before I started my trip.  If you are reading this Carole I just want to say THANK YOU again for your beautiful gift of your husband’s music.  I so appreciate the gift you gave to me.

I say with trepidation (especially if my cousin Paulette is reading this blog) that today was another “food obsession” day.  I wouldn’t really call it “obsession”, but rather a WORK DAY.  I made over 16 quarts of two different kinds of soup.  Worked out early at the gym, came home and worked the rest of the day on the soups.  The only really good thing about it, is that I was able to get a lot of food out of my fridge and it went directly to the freezer when done.  A couple of jars made it back to the fridge for us to eat on tomorrow and the next day.  I worked hard, on my feet all day and now I have a good tired overtaking my body.  It feels good to be tired after a good days work.

I just want to share with all of you how amazing it is for me to listen to such excellent teaching from the church I told you about a few days ago.  Calvary Chapel Modesto has a media center that posts all the teachings that their pastors do.  I just finished listening to all the CD’s on Ecclesiastes. It was an awesome group of sermons.  I highly recommend them.  For the first time I now realize why and how Solomon wrote this book in the Old Testament.  I never could really figure it out before.  I enjoy listening to sermons while at the gym and before going to sleep at night.  When my husband and I awaken in the morning we listen to a CD together.  We are currently studying Matthew.  I actually plan to listen to the entire Bible series by Damian Kyle.

It’s 8:24 p.m. and I am falling asleep here at the computer.  My gift to the Lord has not yet been written so let me see what is in my heart tonight.

MY PERFECT LOVE

By Kathleen Martens

July 18, 2015

What is in my heart this hour

That I need know from my King?

Lord, please put Your wisdom deep within

So to others Your love I bring.

Let Your love shine from my eyes

Your countenance be on my face.

Take me Lord where You want me to go

That I am always in the right place.

I ask that God would use me

And He tells me to sit still.

He says, JUST REST IN MY PRESENCE

And allow your heart to be filled.

I ask what He wants me to say

And He says LISTEN THAT I MAY KNOW

It is not the words you speak

But the love to others you show.

I ask where He wants me to go

And He says just FOLLOW MY PATH

Stray not to the right or left,

And you will never experience My wrath.

I ask how I can reach out and touch

A life that is filled with pain,

He said FOCUS ON PRAISING ME

And that will be your gain.

I askm Lord, how is it I can know

Exactly what I’m supposed to do?

He said READ MY WORD

For that will get you through.

Fret not about all your tomorrows

SPEND TIME IN MY PRESENT.

For this is the now that lasts forever

And our intimacy will be pleasant.

And when your spirit is filled with Mine

You will have answers to questions above.

And then all I have called you to do

Will be accomplished through MY PERFECT LOVE.

Thank you for reading the poem God put in my heart this night to share with you.

Good night.